Heart Space

“Musings on the East to South Directions”

Bald Eagle Feather

A few year ago, I wrote and posted on the site my “Ways to Be”, which came to me as a stated intention to make each day – to stay in my own hoop, speak from the “I” rather than you or we, and to respect boundaries and agreements.  Recovery means becoming mindful, and moving from misery to happiness.  Continue reading ““Musings on the East to South Directions””

“Two hearts beating as one”


There is a deep interconnectedness of all life on earth, from the tiniest organisms, to the largest ecosystems, and absolutely between each person.” Bryant McGill

bear creek

The spring fed creeks and rivers come from our sacred Mother Earth, and give us energy and the medicine of life – our clean waters, where trout and salmon abide.  We take loving care of what we hold as sacred, beginning with self.  Continue reading ““Two hearts beating as one””

Changing – the shift

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the drum is the heartbeat of our Mother Earth.


The drums I make have taught me so much over the years – how my hands and my heart are connected.  The drums are constantly changing, as are we.  The book I am currently reading “The Hidden life of Trees”Image result profoundly shifts the consciousness from “we are masters of the earth” to “The earth is our mother, Continue reading “Changing – the shift”


Due to the ice storm, I haven’t’ been able to get to bear creek for weeks, but this past Friday,  I drove to Carson to fetch the drum hoops that, due to the snow, had been delivered to the feed store in Carson.  I had time, so I drove to my property to check on things, and I experienced the passion of Continue reading “Frozen”

Seeing with soft eyes

My grandpa gave me my first shotgun, and taught me how to use it.  He both hunted and fished, and did well in terms of bringing home the game would coach us to never kill unless we ate our kill.  When squirrel hunting he would keep moving yet sit me down at the base of a tree and tell me to be very quiet and to look with “soft http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-jkcauowYY64/VEQbzoEs5xI/AAAAAAAAC3o/vhGMar05KBY/s1600/soft%2Beye.jpgeyes”.  used to tell me to look at the patterns not the form.  The healthy eye constantly moves, and the puritans called this the the “shifty eyed”.  We all are indigenous here.

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Many best selling books have been written about being in the present and seeing things clearly, yet not a lot about how to practice this.  In our home is a small ping-pong table  that Mandi and I have used for years.  I also use it in my classes to teach mindfulness and tracking.  I practic

Taylor and I at play

e using both hands.  Learning to drum requires finding a center where both sides can work independently and interdependently.  I have played hitting every other shot with my off side, thus doing something physical to restore me to sanity(balance).  In indigenous cultures walking in balance is walking in sanity, as sanity is defined as balance.

In Toltec teachings, tracking is a way to release barriers to our freedom of choice: “to see or not to see” is the question.  When I have the courage to stay with the ball all of the time, I am practicing another kind of mindfulness.  In my 500 hours of post graduate studies in play therapy and addiction, I learned so much about myself that was so much deeper than using pen and word, ie steps four and five.  An inventory is a balance of positive and negative, and successful business have a bit more income flowing in than going out.  When we apply these principals in “all of our affairs”, we are feeding the white wolf more than the black wolf, and a balance is ideal. 

To appreciate you is to elevate your value.  In AA, they told me they would love me until I could love myself. 

Little Jasmine is caught in the spell of  “victim”  consciousness inflicted by predatory women, and as with most “pride blinded” is blinded to the truth.  Jasmine won’t look me in the eye.  Carried shame runs deep in addicts/alcoholics who “use” their children,  and still practicing black magic, who take the path of self destruction. and are so self absorbed that they think only in terms of win/lose. I now have healthy women in my life who can model real and authentic.  In facing my demons inside and “hitting bottom” in my addiction to alcohol, I was able to build on a solid foundation.

I thank my God for the real and authentic friends – those precious few that lighten my burdens!  “Don’t hear the words, listen to the music”

” Winter – The North and the White Buffalo”

Jan 1, 2017

On my north facing wall hangs a painting of four horses and riders and a drum I made with a white buffalo painted on .  Drum artist Rose did the artwork.  This was a collaboration of drum maker and artist – crafts and art.  I have come to know the truth of the Mayan cosmology that time is art.    Continue reading “” Winter – The North and the White Buffalo””

“The Breath of Life – North “

 Each of the thousands of drums I have made is unique. Each one calls for my spiritual, mental, emotional and physical bodies to be in balance. The walk around the wheel is first to complete our own wholeness. Then you can walk with another who has completed their wholeness. The North Direction happens every night when we “fall” asleep. In the yearly cycles, North is air and The cold winds of the north – the winter time. The turning of the wheel is constant, and anytime we “attach”, we fall from grace and ease.
     The breath is Prana – our life force. The breath leads all movement.  Our prayer in this “gathering time” is.. “Thank you for the breath of Life”. Our first breath is when we come through the portals of our mother’s gateway – thrust into a strange new world. Our last breath is our going back home to the spirit world. AA’s first step involves a deflation of our false pride and self centered fear. Ego death’s we survive are much like that – very painful. The insatiable desire to “be right” rather than be real and authentic. Setting our intentions for the new year is much different than “resolutions” which we delight in making, and delight more in breaking. Lasting change is gradual. Health clubs thrive on New Year’s resolutions, as they know the ones who stick around are few.
      Come explore with us the ancient wisdom and teachings of the wheel of life and wheel of death.   In the circle, all can happen!  Beginning Tuesday Evenings, January 10th from 7-9 p.m. in our “Heartspace” (above the store).  The winter is time for quietness, listening to our dream, meditation and prayer…quieting the mind so that still small voice can be heard. Blessings, Patrick